I am in a spiritual crisis. I feel like everyone else are not as deserving as me. To clarify. It seems like i am the only one searching for answers.

Depression is my weakness Nighttime

Is when it gets to it's worst. I dont feel depression at all in the day..well I do but to only some extent. I really dont know what to do anymore. I hate that when well once I was in a group. I am always left at the side with no one to talk to. This is always and forever. The lonliness will never go away. No matter who is there or where. I dont see where this is going.

I wished someone would fucking talk to me.

That awkward moment when your inbox on the phone stays empty every day....

Permantly deleted my facebook. no one talks to me anyways

I wish I could drown in my own vomit

I hate that no matter how hard I try. I can never get people to like me. I try faking. being my self. and well other things. I just do not understand what is wrong with me? People never bother to talk to me. No one cares. Too bad I have to be on meds so I cant drink my sorrows away. FUUUUUCK. How do I tell them I do not want to be on meds anymore? How the fuck do I tell them I'd rather rot in the fucking ground then live how they see I am living?!? They are forcing me to stay in this hell hole with them. So i can suffer as well. I want to move out. I really do. But I dont know what to do. How do I go about this?!! I have no friends to ask if I can move in with. So how the fuck am I going to go about the rest of my life?!

Getting tired of people ignoring me

This sucks. You know what also sucks. Seeing people hanging out with other people you know they'd rather hang out with then you. SUCK. MY BALLS.

Why do people feel the need to brag about who they hang out with and not even manage to invite me anywhere. I mean as a one on one type thing. Am i that much of a bother? Fuck that. Fuck you.